Saturday, December 15, 2007
i don't think the term "happy" pertains to me...it takes a lot to make me laugh these days..
i don't know...when u see me..do u see sadness?????? or my face reads.."sad?? i'm the one u're looking for.."
people come to me only when they are sad or when they need me to do something..i have no clue why..i can only listen to them for i have nothing much to say..or rather..i don't know what to say..it's like i'm a (dunno...dumbo might be a better term?)..when they have nobody to turn to..i'm the one whom they approach..at least there's still somebody..when they are occupied..i will be kept free until when i'm needed later..i didn't mind..maybe at least this is what i could do since i'm available..
when they've picked up their moods and moved on..it's like they are happily blinded by what happened in front of them..they couldn't care less about others....they think everything is all about them...
what if one day i needed help...? would there be anyone around??i guess the chance is slim.. i hope that day doesn't come for i still have that glimmer of hope in people.
it's fucking weird how i can remember what they said..but they dun seem to remember anything..
i should do the same too..i have no obligations to anyone..i am only responsible for myself. i will now only care for those few others that matter..
fuck 'em all..maybe it's time i learn the virtues of selfishness..
posted @2:27 AM