i feel like crying sometimes..but i have no reasons to..and i dun like people crying in front of me..makes me feel helpless..
i have to start somewhere..i don't know where..
i want to get ipod nano..
i'm selfish. i don't like to sacrifice...
i borrowed this book called "building confidence for dummies" today...
i also borrowed "the master key to riches" and i read "think and grow rich" twice..
i'm really lazy. i need motivation. if else..i will always stay at this level..
school's gonna open in less than a week. chiong-ing time...
i don't understand the behaviours of parents. they keep saying it's love..i think otherwise..
i once had nightmare. it's about my wearing a dress...
sometimes people don't remember what they said..it's funny how i remember everything that they've said..if only my good memory can be fully utilized in my school work..
it's scarier choosing your own path than doing what's expected of you...
i don't like celebrating birthdays.Mine especially. i have no idea why..
i don't mind being stood up or having to wait for friends or whoever i'm meeting..it gives me more time to look around and think...
i am disgusted by what i wrote in the past..i'm going to delete all the entries up till july 2007..
i find myself talking a lot lesser in the family.weird. sometimes i dun even make a sound..
likes to be alone and being lonely are two different matters..
i want to be a guy in my next life...
i hope to live on my own one day...
i guess no one else can help me except myself..
i still hate school..part of me wants school to finish sooner...
people keep telling me to go get a boyfriend..i say go get a life!!
out of all the 114 msn contacts i have..i only talk to the same 2 people everyday..
i think the only thing my sister and me have in common is that we are blood related..she's the biggest idiot..
i am timid..
i want to get super busy such that i dun have time to do anything else that do not matter..
i am not really good at initiating a conversation...i suck at it..
shit..books always say when something drastic happens to a person..his life and thinking will change totally and it will make a huge impact on him...does that mean i have to go thru something drastic too??
reading calms me down..
i am afraid of making decisions...
people find it amazing that i can shut my mouth for the whole day...
i like to be alone or with one or two friends..having lots of people around me make me sick..
i want to know how is it to be like to have everything...
i also want to know how is it to be like to have nothing...
i'm neither here nor there..i want to be in somewhere...
i am not contented..true..which is why i'm kinda miserable now..
i'm pathetic.....
i cleared my wardrobe..the clothes that are wearable and those which i always wear add up to about less than 10 pieces..
i want to know why am i always so lost..
i think facebook is getting irritating..
what happens if i suddenly disappear and then to come back after a long long while...
i like the way my hair looks when i wake up in the morning...
people must be thinking that i am a super boring person..
i think that i am a super boring person..no fun at all..
i tried liking pink and purple..but.........................i realised i like blue and black more & more & more!
i get irritated easily these days...
i don't need people to understand me...i don't get myself at times..
