Sunday, September 30, 2007
wah lao..- i stoned in bed last night until 5.30am today..and then i played games on my handphone until 7am..and shut my eyes until 2pm..
- i only ate two mouth of fishball noodles after i woke up..
- i went for a haircut..thou my ma said it was nice..i felt like shit..
- i'm thinking of what to do tmr..most probably go library..
- i'm still thinking of how to have more money...
- i am hungry but i dun feel like eating
- everyone's saying the weather is good..i think it's crap
- i saw my friend with his girlfriend today..i dun wish to make comment..i prefer to keep it to myself..
- i saw my another friend with her girlfriend..i think she looked nice..but she kept looking at me..i dunno why..maybe my hair sibei short..or she discovered i didn't shower earlier on..
- i think kids are terrible..the noise they produced is enough to drive me mad..
- i just watched ratatouille..i dun like it.
- i just finished a snapple. i need more. i want to go new york.
- i am still thinking about getting rich..
- i didn't talk much today except for "anything" when ma asked me wad i wanna eat and "ok lor" when she asked me if i wanna go cut hair with her..and "wah..bacon so salty"
- i listen more than i talk.
- i find talking on the telephone a chore. i dun exactly understand why my sister can talk on the phone for 3 hours. and she's still talking now..
- i find it pretty amazing if i can hold a conversation for more than half an hour. especially with my sister. interestingly..she once told pa i'm some loner and i like to live in my own world and i needed help. i didn't even know!
- my uncle keeps telling me i need to open up. but i dun have anything to say. i dislike him sometimes.
- my paternal grandparents remind me of CNY. cos i only visit them at that time and few other times throughout the year. speaking of cny..i dun wish to do any visiting next year. i want to go away.
- i still feel quite guilty for not visiting them..but the feeling will go away.
- i'm kinda worried for my future. i don't know what to do after i graduate. i dun feel good about working for others.
- i sometimes think about my life after ten years. what will i be like. i like to think about it. sometimes it makes me excited..but other times,it freaked me out.
- i want to buy another timbuk2. so that it makes more sense. i only have one.
- i want to fix another door (kinda impossible) from my room to the outside. so that i can go out straight from there. nobody will know.
- it seems as though i'm a deep thinker. but i'm blank in my mind sometimes. really.
- L***. dun even mention it. my hair will stand.
- maybe i'll buy that shirtdress. but i'll alter it and make it a shirt cos i like that design.
- i have already thought of what my dream house will be like. it's not even a house. but it will be only enough for one and that's me.
- some said there's something weird in the way i talk. but my sister said there's nuthing wrong. why?
- i dun have much self confidence. true.
- i think the best way to deal with happy moments is to keep and savor them. not going around telling everyone. or else they will be jinxed...and the same goes for sad stuff..talk about them and they'll keep coming back..
- i don't like daniel wu anymore!
- i still L*** mdsb...
- my definition of friends now and 5 years before is completely different.
- i am still thinking of becoming filthy rich..
- it's not lying if they make you lie if the only truth they can accept is their own...
- since people always say as long as the"feeling" (canto tone) is right, does it matter if it's a guy or a girl??
- we are always playing role play games like the sims, secondlife etc etc and we are able to control what they do..do u think there could be someone out there from another planet controlling what we are doing? and we are a game to them? i think i'm mad. oh man.
- i don't really like to go to my grandma's house every week. my mother wants me to go.
- i can do things with no reasons. that's why when people asked me to explain. i don't know what to say.
- i read this book about fear. it says that around 90% of what u think or imagine seldom happens. what happens to the remaining 10% ?? i still think they will happen. and i want to think about it. shit.
- i read this book about teaching money stuff for young kids. it says it is important for kids to learn about money. that's why i'm trying to read about kaching kaching to make up for what my parents haven't taught me.
- shit. i am still very bitter about not being able to take up stock market as my IS. it's not my fucking problem. it's their fucking problem. they didn't allow me to choose! ah well....effective ppl management isn't that bad. at least when i become a boss next time, it will come in handy.
- i want to become heartless and do things without feeling guilty and remorse.
- i don't like it when my parents talk to me about responsibilities. i am only responsible for myself. why the fuck do i care..
- i'm 19..not 9...i decide what i do..
- i think i am a very bad friend..i didn't treat them well enough...
- sometimes i don't deserve good things...cos i think i might lose them as soon as i got them..
- i don't like my baby and now photos. i think they look stupid..
- i still wanna be affluent..
- i'm a very bad person...
the above are 51 super duper random stuff about me. the remaining 49 will be out. errr...not so soon..
posted @9:48 PM
